Thursday, November 6, 2008

Please Note

I have an announcement to make.


Early this afternoon I went to the post office. I put our three letters of recommendation, the remaining $2450.00 of our listing fee, our pages and pages of paperwork, our "Dear birth mother" letter, our picture collages and a copy of our home study in the mail. I have a feeling the postal worker thought I was slightly crazy because, as I stood in line, I closed my eyes, laid my open palms on the top of the envelope and prayed silently for that one woman who might see it and feel a leading to place her child into our lives.

There are things I can do. I can do an addendum to our home study once we're settled in the new house. I can research lawyers. I can pray. For the most part, however, it's completely out of our hands.

I feel pregnant.

I know how crazy that sounds and it isn't like I'm heaving my guts up or experiencing searing round ligament pain or craving chocolate covered pickles. But when I was pregnant with Garrett it was all I thought about. I wanted to talk about the baby all the time. I worried that people were getting annoyed with how often I discussed the child within me. I feel that way now. The difference is that, this time, I don't have a due date. Someone could choose us in two months or someone could never choose us. It's as open ended as that. But I feel completely wrapped up in this child within--even if it's only, technically, on paper. Even if it's only within my heart. There is a small part of me that feels sorrow over the lack of maternity clothing and the glow that people speak so fondly about. But only because, now that the packet is on its way, I want to shout from the rooftops that we're having a baby...someday.

I am pleased to announce, however, that we are, indeed, Paper Pregnant: Adoption In Progress. And now we wait...

19 comments:

  1. Congratulations! Feel free to talk about your coming baby anytime when you're around me!

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  2. Your child is on their way, to you...however long that takes. YAY!
    Congratulations.

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  3. I can't wait to be a Grandma again! This child will either be "my favorite second grandson" or "my favorite oldest granddaughter." At least with this pregnancy you won't try to convince me that you need a WHOLE Costco cake on the way home from work!! I am sooooo excited and I have a feeling it will happen sooner rather than later.

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  4. yay! congratulations! I look so forward to hearing what happens next!

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  5. No worries... I am sure you still have the "soon to be a mommy" glow. It comes from your heart and the joy of having a child.. not physically being pregnant. I'm excited for you and Troy. You are in my prayers and I can't wait to hear the good news of when you will be getting a child!

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  7. I certainly believe that "the glow" will show on your face regardless if your new baby is growing inside you or elsewhere in the world, because that glow is of an overexcited, bursting with anticipation, proud mommy to be... and that my friend is exactly what you are!

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  8. I am so happy that you are going to have another kid whether only on paper at the moment or not. God will bless you with the perfect child!Congrats!

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  9. Congratulations! I pray that God is softening the heart of the perfect birth mother and that you are able to meet your next child very soon :)

    God is amazing and knows exactly what is going to happen and when. :)

    ~Heather

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  10. Yay!!! I can't wait to buy more books for my new niece or nephew. Just kidding - I'll buy the litle tike something more exciting than just books. Garrett probably has enough of those from me to share, lol.

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  11. Congrats on your 'pregnancy.' Yes, this baby is already in your heart. It doesn't matter if it's just an idea in your mind or holding them in your arms. I too am in love with the babies I will hopefully one day have. I get it. I truly understand this.

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  12. congrats lori, i hope everything works out and happens quickly for you guys!!!
    christina

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  13. Congratulations! How wonderful!! I will be checking back often to hear news of your little gift from God!

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  14. Congrats Lori! I am so excited for you guys!!!

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  15. congratulations!!! lots of prayers going up for you guys from this corner of the world :)

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  16. YOU don't know your due date but God does. I can't wait to meet the newest member of your family. :)

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  17. My, this post generated a lot of comments. Remember them when the baby shower comes around! I am happy that you sent the paperwork off with a prayer of dedication. Congratulations! J

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  18. Congrats!! or perhaps, GOOD LUCK!!! I'm sure someone will choose you and Troy soon. I only know you from your blog and I can't think of any one who deserves the blessing of children more. :)

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  19. Awesome! Im very excited for you guys and will keep you in our prayers.

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