Friday, March 13, 2009

Hope Does Not Disappoint Us

My body aches. One day at a time has become one hour or, perhaps even, one minute at a time. I don't really want to share too many legal details on a blog but Matthew's adoption is being contested. He is certainly ours for now but in a couple of months he may not be. And, unfortunately, we don't have the kind of money it takes to fight. We've already taken out a loan to pay for the costs we've incurred and we haven't had a tough legal battle yet.

When I learned of all of this today, the following passage crawled into my head:

Romans 5:1-5
Therefore, since we have been justified through faith, we have peace with God through our Lord Jesus Christ, through whom we have gained access by faith into this grace in which we now stand. And we rejoice in the hope of the glory of God. Not only so, but we also rejoice in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; perseverance, character; and character, hope. And hope does not disappoint us, because God has poured out his love into our hearts by the Holy Spirit, whom he has given us.

This is incredibly difficult. If you would please join us in praying for the well being of Matthew, we would be thankful. We would love it if you could share our story with people who might lift us up in prayer. Pray for Matthew and for Garrett. Pray for a peace that passes understanding. Pray, if you will, for our financial situation. We worship a God who is much bigger than our check book but, when a mother looks at the dwindling funds and then looks into her child's eyes, the anguish is almost tangible.


  1. My heart aches. My prayer go out to you.

  2. We are praying. I am so sorry you are going through this.

  3. Going boldly before the throne of grace for you. J

  4. I am torn in so many directions, that I am speechless. You are being prayed for, your whole family, and especially Matthew.

  5. Oh no! I want you to know we are praying for you all. We may not understand things, but we must know that God is in control. I pray for peace, amd strength. Every day little Matthew is in your arms, he is blessed beyond measure. Stay strong!
    With Love,

  6. I just can't even imagine.

    Please know that I am praying for your family.

    Off to donate.


  7. Interceding on your behalf......

    I truly can sense your heart tearing in two here. May you experience peace amidst this storm. God can and will do great things through this situation.

  8. Have you heard of Wish Upon a Hero? You can make wishes, and ordinary people can help you fulfill them. I just saw a story on them last night, and the timing seems amazingly fortuitous, given that I've just caught up on my blog reading today.

    That little boy is so lucky to have you right now. Be strong.

  9. I am praying for you. I know nothing of your story since I just came upon your website but I am adding you to my prayers! May God bless your family & especially Matthew!

  10. Just wanted to know that we are praying for your family. I can't imagine your pain.

    We had an adoption fall through before we even got to meet the baby and it was still heartbreaking. I can not imagine having cared for him for weeks.

    Blessings to you and please Lord, what is best for sweet Matthew.