Saturday, December 16, 2006

Ordinary Miracle

I was making dinner the other night and Oprah was on in the other room. Troy was outside chopping more wood for the fire, Garrett was balanced on my left hip. Beck was helping Troy and Oliver was lazing in front of the fire. At the end of the episode, Sarah McLachlan sang Ordinary Miracle from Charlotte's Web. In the middle of the song I walked out to really listen and that's when it hit me. Garrett is my ordinary miracle. I've become obsessed with the song. Troy never doubted that we'd have a biological child, he just thought we'd be blessed with an adopted child first and somewhere down the line we'd have a biological one. I, on the other hand, truly believed that adoption was the single method by which our children would be obtained. I was in (good) denial for about half of my pregnancy. To be truthful, I am still slightly in denial. Sometimes I look down at the baby sleeping my arms or giggling on the floor and I literally feel the need to pinch myself. Babies are ordinary. Women in every city of every country on every continent grow them like it's the easiest thing in the world. There's nothing unique about an individual's ability to procreate. But every baby, and especially the baby of the once infertile, is miraculous. The words to my son's theme song are listed below…

It's not that unusual

When everything is beautiful

It's just another ordinary miracle today

The sky knows when it's time to snow

Don't need to teach a seed to grow

It's just another ordinary miracle today

Life is like a gift they say

Wrapped up for you everyday

Open up and find a way

To give some of your all

Isn't it remarkable

Like every time a raindrop falls

It's just another ordinary miracle today

Birds in winter have their fling

They always make it home by spring

It's just another ordinary miracle today

When you wake up everyday

Please don't throw your dreams away

Hold them close to your heart

Because we are all a part of the ordinary miracle

Ordinary miracle

Do you wanna see a miracle?

It seems so exceptional

When things just work out after all

It's just another ordinary miracle today

The sun comes up and shines so bright

And disappears again at night

It's just another ordinary miracle today

Thursday, December 7, 2006

December 7

December 7 is a good day for our family.

Four years ago today I started dating Troy.

One year ago today, I found out that I was pregnant with Garrett. It is incredible how much changes in just 365 days. I can't believe that in 525,600 minutes this little boy has gone from a bean shaped heartbeat to a laughing, wiggling, tiny human. And then people have the audacity to even so much as mumble that there is no God. I beg to differ.

Dear God,

Thank you so much for giving me Troy four years ago, words cannot describe the blessing he has been. And thank you for letting Garrett be a part of my life for the past year. His presence is nothing short of miraculous. Amen.